I'm here as promised ~
Hit the ground running this morning at work; walked in and barely had a chance to put my purse down before getting right to people at the counter. I think that's why I'm not able to get here as much. A friend of mine suggested I take some pressure off of myself to not be here everyday - but I think i need it. I need to remind myself to take 5 minutes for myself. To get centered at some point. To set a goal for the day.
Every morning, I pray. I pray for "Peace, Serenity, Grace, and Tranquility" for me, and for my family to keep us "Happy, Healthy, Safe and Together" in that order. I don't know why I felt the need to share that with you, I just did...perhaps to give you some idea where I'm coming from. Anyway, my goal for today is just those 4 things - Peace, Serenity, Grace & Tranquility.
If you can keep your head while all about you are losing theirs....

Been a while, huh?
Life got busy and ... you know, it's difficult to get into the frame of mind I'm looking for for this project when at work. Something changes on the 15 minute drive here that makes me shift gears and be a different person. I can tell by the way my husband and I interract when we're at work...we're very business like. And short. Which I interpret as his being upset with me, and he likewise. That sets off a chain of events that usual gets untangled once I get home in the evening.
Good times.
So I will try to be here each morning, as intended. Of course, if I wanted it to be really entertaining, I could attempt it before my morning coffee...

Love is...

Waking thought: "...For better or worse"
That has stuck with me this whole morning...and when I was looking for pictures to accompany this post, I found this one, with one of my favorite Biblical verses: "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

You know what? I haven't been or done very much of that lately...It's so simple. Just love him.

Milestones

Big things today~

My oldest daughter, Mojo had her Middle School orientation today.  

Got her her a cell phone.

My husband agreed to go to counseling with me.

Will elaborate more later~need to go decompress now.

gone

I don't even have time to search for a picture to accompany my post (which I love doing).  We're outta here for a few days ~ a little soccer, a little SeaWorld, and I hope a lot of rest.

You can stay here though, clean sheets are in the linen closet, there's plenty of food in the fridge.  Please just feed the critters and water my plumeria and we'll be home on Wednesday.  And clean up if you have a party.

Out the Window

Well that whole "Routine" thing went out the window...which is usually what happens with me when it comes to journals, diaries and the like. My intentions were to swing by here every morning while I had my morning cup of coffee and spend it with you guys. But work/life/kids/coworkers etc. happen (And those DAMN OLYMPICS run SO late every night, I'm definitely staying up way past my bedtime.)

So...ok, define routine. Routine could mean once a week, right? I mean the whole point of this process was to cleanse my soul and mind a bit...unload the backpack. This place isn't supposed to BE another rock in the backpack; "I have to run to the bank, we're out of shampoo, pay that bill AND I HAVE TO BLOG!!!!"

NO. That isn't what this is. This is supposed to be enlightening, uplifting and insightful. Cathartic. A joy, not an obligation.

Ok...deep breath....where there is a will, there is a way...

Inner Peace

I have a friend who is Cameron to my Ferris. Cameron & I were on, for lack of a better term, hiatus for a while. (Too long, I'm beginning to find out). When we came back together, I was amazed at her positive, calm outlook.

Last night I had a very trying night; relatives in town, social obligations, overactive children, exhaustion, money concerns...the usual Monday night. I went to bed in knots last night. At four this morning, I woke to one single thought "Inner Peace". That, above all other things is what I want.

With that Inner Peace, I can manage all of the other situations that are bothering me. I can be an example of composure to my daughters. I can make rational decisions. I can breathe.

Again?

I have another migraine headache right now. I've recently seen a Dr. for these, even though I've had them my whole life. He prescribed medicine for me that cuts the time & pain in half. But I'm still frustrated at having to deal with these things. I've paid attention to food, drink, sleep habits and there is no rhyme or reason to why I get them. I do have an idea, but I don't see that dr. until Sept. 3rd.

So, I guess I'll just deal with it. ...and I was feeling SO productive today.

The Goal

My goal, as it is, is to be here at least once daily. To muse, ponder, pontificate, share, wonder, rant, rave, giggle, guffaw.

Whatever my mood, my concerns, my feelings...I will be here. And share them with you...whoever you are.